feeling nostalgic

assalamualaikum everyone
sorry bcos i didn't post yesterday
i was so exhausted that i fell asleep
school was boring yesterday
as usual, every thursday morning, we have to gather at medan tarbiah
cikgu jailani told us that we will merentas desa this monday. its not desa actually its more like bandar.

i went to pasar malam again yesterday.
bought 2 roti tempayans, seketul fried chicken and coconut shake.

my house is sooo 'kubey' since it's under renovation
theres piles of unused books, magazines and other stuffs
i was belek-ing the books and i found late anis's exercise book
so i flipped through the book
the date of the last spelling she did was 21.03.2001.
2 days before my birthday and 11 days before she left us.
i can't remember much about her bcos i was only 5 when she passed away and adek was 2.
it has been 8 years since we lost her
my 2nd sis told me that if anyone ask me how many siblings do i have,
tell that person, '8 sipe sore'
before she told me that, i tell people 7 because i know they'll be asking me how did late anis's passed away and im lazy to tell them the whole story. i know if i tell them one thing, they'll be asking more questions. God, i was soo not very nice. but, im not lazy anymore. ill tell people i have 6 sisters and 1 lil sis and i am the 7th daughter. ill tell them the whole story if they ask me.
when i saw her on the bed, blue, eyes closed and people were crying and sobbing,
i didn't feel anything. i didn't even shed a tear. now, i have grown up. every time i think about her, ill shed lots of tears but my adek is worse. she will be crying and sobbing more than i do. but she's always like that. when she watches any sad dramas or movies, she'll cry like umm i dunno lah. what a dramaqueen. xD. sometimes i think she should be acting for any sad dramas or movies. i guarantee she'll win the Anugerah Skrin. *ROFL*

my adek made pancake for breakfast today
yupp. she's good. xD. but im better im just lazy. hehe
just now, mama was tidying up the house. she's throwing all unused things
and she found a box
inside the box there are my raya cards when i was 6-7. and theres also letter from kakwe.
u see, at that time, kakwe don't have a handphone yet. so, kami pun berutus surat lah. HAHA. kuno kan? mama gave me those letters. i asked mama 'ma, tidok surat2 ni dok daley kotok eh?' and mama said, 'doh kotok tu reput doh.' so, i think i wanna buy a nice box for those letters and i'll put any letters or cards i get into that box. i read all kakwe's letters and all her letters were signed with her usual 'Who else? Kakwe' or 'Lots of Love, Kakwe'.

if i can only show to u guys what atique wrote for kakwe in her blog.
kakwe is a very nice sister. she's the oldest of the eight of us
i looovvvee her. she never says no if i want her to buy anything to me
i remember when i told her that i want a digital camera for my birthday
well, off course she didn't buy it for me. i was only 8 that time.
but she bought it for herself. she told me that she bought that camera because i want one.
there are lots of things she did for me and my other sisters.

thats all for now. InsyaAllah ill post again tonite.

tata~
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