Sudah terang lagi bersuluh.

Akhirnya. Segala-galanya jelas dan nyata sekarang.

Tak perlu lagi nak pening-pening kepala, tak perlu fikir banyak-banyak dan tak perlu menyusahkan siapa-siapa.


Kadang-kadang rasa macam diri ini sangat tidak bersyukur. Selalu rasa tidak puas hati dengan apa yang ada dan apa yang diperoleh. Biarpun benda tu sebenarnya diri sendiri yang minta.


Tidak faham apa yang saya maksudkan?

Senang cerita, saya telah mendapat apa yang saya harapkan, tetapi pada masa yang sama, ada sedikit rasa kecewa yang timbul di jiwa.

Tetapi jika difikirkan, kalaulah yang berlaku adalah sebaliknya, lagi panjang kisah yang sudah berjela-jela episodnya ini. Sebab perkara ini melibatkan orang lain yang sebenarnya langsung tidak mahu dikaitkan bersama.

Masih tidak mengerti? Jika anda bernasib baik mungkin saya akan kongsi hal ini bersama anda secara privasi. Mungkin juga tidak.


Terima kasih Tuhan. Terima kasih kerana memakbulkan doa hambamu yang hina-dina ini.



Maaf kerana memutarbelitkan fikiran kalian. Dan maaf juga kerana Bahasa Melayu saya yang tunggang-langgang.

"Adapt yourself to the things among which your lot has been cast and love sincerely the fellow creatures with whom destiny has ordained that you shall live."
-Marcus Aurelius-

Sekian,

Islam itu Fitrah.

Ramai yang berkata:

"Aku tidak mahu menjadi hipokrit, aku mahu menjadi diriku yang sebenar."

apabila diajak mengamalkan Islam secara menyeluruh.

Ramai terlupa,
diri kita yang sebenar adalah yang mengamalkan Islam.
Jadi, tak mengamalkan Islam itulah hipokrit yang sebenarnya.

-Hilal Asyraf




Silakan terasa.

Keliru : Tak tahu arah nak tuju

Have you reached that phase in your life where you have to make a reaaaaaaaaaally important decision at a very crucial moment that will determine how your future is going to look like, but you're torn in between, feeling clueless, hopeless and confused?


I had.


But I've gone through it. Wait no, I thought that I've made my way through all those thorns and vines, having suffered all the pain. But yet, I'm still lost in the middle of nowhere. Being engulfed by confusion and.....depression.

As Muslims, we all know that when it comes to making choices, we've got to perform Istikharah. With the utmost humbleness as a mere servant, I knelt upon Him and begged for guidance. One day I woke up, and everything was crystal clear. I was so relieved that I finally managed to escape from this dilemma which had been haunting me day and night.


But then something came up.


My heart wavered.....again.




Sometimes I feel like I'm only here to please others. I always feel obliged to do things that I didn't even really want to, but for the sake of other people I still did it. I'm too used to having others deciding things for me that I've come to that point where I don't even know what I want anymore.

Tapi saya rasa lebih baik buat sesuatu yang menggembirakan semua orang walaupun hati kita tak senang, daripada buat sesuatu yang kita suka tapi menyusahkan ramai orang. Lagipun, buat apa nak kejar perkara yang belum pasti kesahihannya sedangkan perkara yang telah pun terzahir kebaikannya ada di depan mata kita?



And I'm glad I have someone like you to turn to when I'm facing these kind of situations. Even though what you write always make me cry buckets. Thanks hermanita :')

History is repeating.



Truthfully,

First week.

More like first three days actually, haha.

I was really looking forward for the first day, but sadly it didn't turn out as how I expected it to be. Of course I was excited to meet my friends, and it's good to see new faces in class but I felt like there's something...not quite right.

Let's just skip the boring part shall we?

I'm sitting in the first row this year so that I could have a clear view of the whiteboard. And I'm the kind of person who looks straight at the teacher's face when learning process is being carried out. But the thing is, it's not even a week since school started but I'm already dozing off in most periods. Which is not supposed to happen...yet. In the end, I'm the only who's facing my desk, struggling in keeping my almost-shut eyes open while everyone else was so eager listening to the teacher's explanation regarding the format and whatnot.

I really need to revert back my haphazard sleeping pattern to its usual form as soon as possible. It's doing me no good. Gotta make sure my sleep hormone does its job at its normal working hours. No more overtime for you Melatonin.



Cikgu-cikgu best, subjek-subjek baru yang menarik, dan classmates baru.


I wonder what this year would bring.




Pelajar kelas 4 Ummu Sulaim,

Pleasure to meet you, 2012.

Sepanjang cuti sekolah ni tak pernah lagi aku bangun selewat aku bangun hari ni. Paling lewat pun dalam pukul 11-12 macam tu. Tapi hari pukul 1 lebih kot baru bukak mata. Hahahahaa tu pun nasib baik azan Zuhur berkumandang. Kalau tak entah pukul berapa baru anak dara pingitan ni sedar daripada mimpi.

Twitter was over capacity for hoursssss last night. If you were a person, I could've strangled you till death. I kept refreshing the page but all I got was the infamous obese white whale helplessly being carried eight tiny orange birds.

I think Twitter knew that I almost threw up looking at the same pathetic whale for what seemed ages. So after a while Twitter decided to show me something cuter so that I could end my nausea.

If you've never come across this before, be grateful. Because it means you've got a reaaaaaally good Internet connection.

Good job Twitter. Good job. I really love your concept this time.


And I forgot to put up this photo in my previous post.

First time wearing Kimono. I'm the one with the red bow! :D

And hello new reader(s) :)

Ciao for now,